i love AUTISM !!!!!!!!!!!

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i made this video because i kept clipping and posting random bits to lose my mind over and i was like okayyy why don't i just make a compilation so We Can All Simply Understand Everything. anyway sorry and thank you to anyone who has weathered my dc hyperfixation over the past two weeks that's my bad. let me make this post and then we can all carry on

where to begin... i have been bombarded with so much superman press that i willingly played into the offerings (once again i love consuming Mainstream Movie Press Content) and was almost immediately sucked into the sheer autistic energy that dc exudes. AND NICHOLAS HOULT WAS THERE..... you know i love to psychoanalyze a celebrity!!! david is such a fascinating creecher to me because he expresses his neuroticism very openly while also embodying a lot of the universal aspects of superman as a character to the point where it's like, factually woke and inextricable that superman is autistic and that his literal alienation and desperation for human assimilation functions as an allegory for neurodivergence. like i think it's genuinely incredible to watch him subtly weave his way through interviews and constantly bring up that he himself operates on a sort of wavelength separate from Humans, that he sucks at being a Human, that he struggles to understand cues the way Humans do, and THENNNNN be like yessss literally what ties the entire superman struggle together is that he isn't human but craves the vulnerability of humanity. More on this later

fun fact about me is that i bingewatched the entirety of The Politician s1 in 2019 from like 11pm to 6am and my main takeaways from the show were 1) wow this is terrible but also camp in a kind of ironic lowbrow way and 2) I LOVE RIVER BARKLEY... which is insane looking back on. also insane is the fact that the only reason david is now superman is that he was cast by ryan murphy as bisexual dead boyfriend eyecandy. like i can't..... there's this one interview where he discusses spending a lot of time with his father before he passed away and how he moved back home to take care of him and the only reason he could really do it with an easier conscience is the fact that he'd booked the politician and finished filming and it was his first Main Cast role on television, because at first he'd only been booked for a guest role but ryan murphy was like hmmm no i think we should expand on your storyline. and then he had to make out with ben platt for money.

not the point. well kind of the point is that he had job security from the politician for the first time in his life and then he received the additional lifeline of being fasttracked into ryan murphy's next project, aka hollywood, which IMO probably contributed to his casting in pearl because they're both like old timey period pieces about or adjacent to the film industry and it's easy to see how he was typecast from hollywood to the projectionist. and pearl is where james gunn saw him and requested he tape for superman so -> sometimes gay men who write insane teenage television are 2-for-2 for launching normie straight men into superman stardom. also i didn't know superman fans liked thoech's superman so much which is kind of endearing to me... like that's grandpaaaaa

there is no structure to this post i'm just putting all my stray thoughts onto one page and letting it out of my mind. i HAVE MUCH TO SAY!!! ok re: dc/nh dynamic. they are actually diametric to many british and american duo leads because in this instance nick is the child actor turned movie star who developed a rich and proven filmography through decades of experience and sheer tenacity without any time spent at acting school while david is the academically-driven east coast suburban juilliard-trained theater kid who went to a private high school in Bryn Mawr Pennsylvania and kind of dug his way through a lot of nothing roles and the fact that they've managed to converge at this point where nick has become the naturally comedic and laidback safety net for david during canon event Superhero Movie press is so funny to me. james gunn literally being like nick is soooo much better of an actor and he's my favorite child and i can depend on him to do everything right all the time and he's never disappointed me ever in my life. DAVID ON THE OTHER HAND... just because david is annoying and autistic and asks too many clarifying questions and Needs to always understand and be understood and make sure everything is exactly as it should be and that the overarching motivations and methods are clearly delineated before he dives into the meat of a scene T__T

AND IT'S LIKE... it's not even about the problematicactinggap. there's so much mutual respect for each other's craft and david believes so much in the art of storytelling and film and music and sci-fi and comedy and he loves to see the math and formulae behind everything on a narrative level, like he's just eager and hungry for the Knowledge of how things function. and at the end of the day he goes onto a 2-hour podcast and spends the entire time WAXING POETIC ABOUT NICHOULT'S COMEDIC ABILITY and is like ughhhh i wish i could do that. not even because there's a specific need for him to become a more comedic actor or to develop any particular skill in stand-up but just because he has appreciation for the craft and finds himself lacking in a way that personally disappoints him and is misaligned with his image of himself. Which is so funny to me. like there's another podcast where he talks about always being super skinny growing up and he's like well yes i always wanted to be big because i never felt like i really fit right in my body and it was uncomfortable so i enjoyed having an excuse to finally bulk up for superman...

like girl.

i genuinely love that he's so unfailingly literal and that the main trio accommodate that energy like rachel is a very appropriately chronically online woman for her age which is to say she clearly consumes a Normal, Average amount of tiktok and is familiar with basic trends BUT because he's sooo unplugged from social media and doesn't know a single meme she kind of looks insane next to him. he's a 5 year old victorian child and she's like PEASANT... DO THE APPLE DANCE. but also it's actually very cute because you can see that she looks at him like he's a lego baby and she's like okay sweetie let's go put some blocks together ❤️ and lets it happen. i think the neapolitan gag and her obvious joke COMPLETELY flying over his head is hilarious but of course my favorite bit is his r2 impressions and how alarmed and confused they both were by his droid noises. which is objectively not even that weird she's just like oh here he goes again with his star wars

ok tyso podcast...... the thing is that there are bits where rick glassman, who is autistic, specifically mentions superman being neurodiverse and describes the act of david slipping into a character for his press commitments as masking, kind of in the context of masking actually being a very simple concept to grasp but one that neurotypical people shy away from because the language is unfamiliar to them. of course i did not include those in this compilation because it's more about david's mindset and lexicon, which i find to be very intentional, and it is my aim to present these clips in as objective a fashion as possible. him saying that superman misses obvious cues is objective; connecting rick's assessment of a neurodiverse superman, which is a projection of david's more subtle language, is less so. BUT IT'S LIKEEEEE.........

GIRL. omg the entire podcast is crazy because he has this tendency to go off on tangents and then say one quip and then immediately lose his train of thought and has to hard reset for 5 seconds and then he has this actual moment of SELF-REFLECTION about the very thing and is like i can't be comedic because any time i do an aside i'm not able to just return to what i was saying before because i get too caught up in it and it's just like. like what kind of neurotypical person would go on a podcast to dissect their PR character for 2 hours and lament the fact that they aren't funny and natural and human enough and don't know how to take the piss to the point that their costar is sending them back voice notes like Babe nooo you're so funny and articulate and you have to stop being so hard on yourself!!!!!... like that's literally the entire podcast no joke. they do a whole entire bit where he's like i don't know how to answer questions in a way that's palatable to the interviewer because i hate lying and i don't understand what these questions mean past face value and if someone asks me if [inane thing] is Interesting my brain will be like well does that interest me ? umm no not really... but that's not what the AUDIENCE wants to hear so what can i even do. and then they rehearse questions and he sends a voice note to nichoult asking how he would answer a press question and he spends 20 minutes anxiously looking down at his phone to see whether he's texted him back. God

the other crazy part is that he's literally an aviation geek and only says Airplanes Turn Me On in the vicinity of rick because he's like oh it's autism safe space this is autist2autist communication i'm allowed to say that. But then he regrets saying it anyway. he literally kills me dead. anyway the facking layers to him being guy who spends hours earnestly and unironically consuming air traffic control videos on youtube and lamenting the fact that he isn't funny and isn't capable of doing like intentional comedy and THENNNNNNNNNNN being like Have you seen the rehearsal s2? is just INSANE TO ME!!!!!!! because he's like the unrealized form of nathan fielder's REHEARSAL PERSONA. like do you get what i mean.

like david corenswet goes on a podcast hosted by an autistic guy to be like yeah, the character i put on in press is not me but an affected version of myself that i have to specifically construct to manage social expectations. and i love the rehearsal s2 which has a premise hinged on the pitfalls of cockpit communication but is really kind of a meta overview of how easy it is to lose your central values to social expectations once the affected version of yourself is readily accepted and validated on a public level, wherein nathan fielder, in the show the rehearsal which is a docucomedy that purposely blurs the lines of reality and actively taunts the viewer to see truth in his art, plays up a very deliberate autistic persona to deliver his message of self-repression in the final act. AND IT'S CRAZY because the whole pointttt is that like. ok whether nathan fielder himself is autistic or not doesn't matter. but the point is that nathan fielder is doing a very sharp, tightly-written, and witty BIT that culminates in this kind of self-evisceration of the fielder method, and yet david is sitting there on his podcast couch like Yes. I love The Rehearsal. And we should unironically rehearse press questions so I can get a good grade in Superman press questions. even though this is counterintuitive to the entire ethos of the rehearsal

i love radical earnestness... i love the fact that he's like being aware of the feeling of my sock in my shoe will literally ruin my whole day and i need to listen to music to get my mind out of my body. and the fact that his Big Argument with james gunn on the set of superman was because he couldn't process the gap between emotion and logic and needed james to spell it out to him like JUST BECAUSE LOGICALLYYYY SOMETHING HAPPENED AND HE HAS A RATIONAL UNDERSTANDING OF HIS OWN VULNERABILITY DOESN'T MEAN HE STILL CAN'T HAVE HIS FEELINGS HURT.

god. obsessed