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girlrockwhat a month huh ? captain it's may 6...
wheel/puck
β we live in a lando onewins society... so many thots on this race that do not need to be rehashed extensively (and yet i will inevitably do something close enough to that) but also as an oscarybro my 55 agenda grows by the day it's so bad π 2c*r is krilling my crops because i cannot ship 81 with guys he doesn't rate (2) and/or guys who don't have even the slightest baseline of mutual respect/reciprocal sentiment with him (55)... like the Hateurism angle isn't even compelling 2 me because in the end it's just coughing baby vs hydrogen bomb / one guy biting his tongue and downplaying it to the point of not even calling it a racing incident vs. the other guy frothing at the mouth whinging about this man's terrorism supposedly being on par with KMAG ON HAMILTON ?!? can you Pleaseeeeee. like king i respect your fuckit attitude whilst facing 7wdc-induced unemployment and contractual 4d chess that may or may not come back 2 haunt u eoy but can you like get a job maybe. also have to laugh at oscar pitting > uselessly taking fl point from lando > carlos getting the pen in the end and losing 2 points > lando getting upgraded to wdc p4 off p2 tiebreaker from his china podium. everything in equilibrium π
but fr all there's left in this world is to be a little bit romantic about sports... it's funny because. i don't even know. i'd been feeling very like... normal ? not stressed ? about this entire weekend, partially because I don't really put that much stock in a post-upgrade sprint weekend and preemptively allowed a lot of room for error but also because i've been soooo much more stressed out about the st*rs and because the general sentiment around the upgrades has been so positive even with the sq setbacks / track surfacing & unpredictable conditions concealing true pace gains that i wasn't ever that worried about our long runs and race trim. v happy 2 be proven right even if i never in a million years could have predicted both the race start + sc reversal... tho also skill issue re: extending stint + if both cars had cashed in on the sc we would have sat through nightmare discourse on lando inevitably overtaking oscar and their pace deficit saurr maybe it's for the better. also hard to tell what "50%" of upgrades tangibly translates to wrt performance but meh. imola... crasy 2 think oscar has never raced there but at least he's done testing so it's not too unfamiliar of a track. i just worry about fer upgrades but in general i hope some fortune returns in europe because brother... π ALSO WHY IS DORY WASHED. we need to get Ha out of miami
honestly being an op81 fan is so easy because there's just this enduring sense of like / it's almost an insult really to fixate too meticulously on his poor luck when he himself is not relying on any excuses so when he's already moved on and is looking forward why wouldn't you ? he genuinely got agitated over the sc and this was easily one of if not the most frustrating race of his career so far wrt potential of lost result but it's such a little inconsequential thing in the grand scheme of things that it's easy to reset and be like ju................ i fell asleep writing this. idk what i was going to say but anyway we move on
cursed race/paddock/discourse in many ways but meh....... also i went back in my messages and perhaps i lied about not caring about miami results but i mean once fp1 happened i was fairly optimistic about the upgrades because lando's attitude toward a package is easy enough to read. finally me saying "aero efficiency gains in miami queen ? π" @ andrea every day for a month has paid off
from 04/23...
also. andrea stella u are everythingggg 2 me 𧑠croed @ gentle op knee pat during post-race msgs TT___TT at the end of the day i love One (1) eternally pragmatic italian tp
also why is oscar going to the club for lando lowk peak romanze 2 me. there is no one i could ever love enough in the entire world to go to a nightclub for. hell environment...... that being said i also have considerably more health issues than the man but the principle of shut-in non-drinker introversion remains
β stars........... tfw the love continues 2 be there. (she dies) this stupid ass family-narrative team why are they all obsessed with each other why do they live and die by there is no fear in love / a little less for a lot more / their unerring devotion to TeamTM ?!?!? i kept saying i was terrified of a vgk 1st round exit and spent so long emotionally preparing myself and yet when we went down 2 i still started genuinely experiencing hot flashes omg like it was so bad my doomerism has never been worse. wyatt johnston you rock my world.....
if i think about it too much i'll actually cry π but seriously. pavs was neutralized so much this series and i keep having to take deep breaths like... and Yet the 20 year old kid he houses is the one suddenly leading the offensive surge on this team, 25 y/o otter is out here calling delly his SON and has him living with him and his fiancΓ©e, harls is literally a wedge adoptee, our "star" player is a facking unasumming nerd who is at the center of so many random flop loser triangulations........ π Basically it's like this:
not everything has 2 be broced redux 𧑠let us expand our horizons 𧑠and also stop doomposting in the primary tags π§‘
but anyway. i'm not delusional enough to think that the avs will in any way be an easy matchup and maybe we're destined for unceremonious 2nd round exit but it feels like. so good to finally "avenge" last year in a way and i GUESS do so on home ice even if this was the most stressful way the series could have played out. like why are we allergic to 2+ goal leads you are all so deeply unserious. shoutout rf12 g7 gwg fr though
music
β mtg is insane..... not like us is less insane objectively but still insane given timing and release strategy. goes without saying that it's reductive to only make it about the ~hateurisms~ when properly contextualized but also like... he is a professional hateur fr. also revisited hiss a few times and <3 i love u meg
β been listening to way too much lc! lately it's like a disease. my fav track used to be a heat rash in the shape of the show me state but i was suddenly feeling nostalgic about their discog and went back to revisit so many tracks and now we are beautiful we are doomed / the sea is a good place double feature has a chokehold on me. faaaackk... and ofc my mountain goats moment which is similarly awful. life has been uniquely difficult as of late that my playlist of emotional support depression songs has nearly doubled π
u have to laugh. nwjns they could never make me hate u and so on
also been enjoying swedish alt rock legends KENT recently π
i need to do my 2024 k-pop catchup but i haven't had the energy... hopefully soon
(this thing hurts like hell / but what did you expect? πππ)
etc.
β i'm so freaking bad at watching things lately but emily inspired me to finally sit my ass down and get to problemista and π SOO charming oh julio torres how i adore u. also idr if i already talked about this but i watched soulmate (2023) (kr) with risa a while ago and like omg girl what da hell. NO ONE IN THIS WORLD EVER LOVED YOU EXCEPT ME?!?!?!?!?
tv-wise i finished baby reindeer which whew. ep6 monologue far too trenchant... i keep meaning to watch other stuff but i'm like eughhghhh. still haven't finished yr s3 and it's been out for an eternity by now. in fact i'm barely through s3e2... also note 2 self 2 check out jellyfish can't swim !!__!! honestly i don't even know what the last anime i properly watched was. why is banfish the only one coming to mind rn??? π
+++ have to watch challengers. why am i the only person on planet earth to not have seen it yet
β i want to make a bunch of knit/crochet stuff and therefore keep trying to pick them (back in the case of knitting) up but i am SOOOO BADDDD at crocheting i think i need to accept that it is not for me. i don't understand... i never know what loop i'm supposed to be using.......... and i wanted to knit a little sweater for a plushie but the moment extra needle lines (?) are introduced i get so facking confused π my brain is so small. i should try again at some point though... aghhh. so inspired by oomf creations lately tho πππ one day!
β i feel weird/bad/stupid about art and Making things all the time because it's just like well it's bad... but it's fine that it's bad!!! so why do i care. but also it's just sooo bad. i don't know... c__c i feel silly that all i do is draw little cheebs and have 0 Technical Ability but like ??___?? i am old and tired and am doing my best. save me rookie (2017) ojp variant π
β also been workshopping a living document that's just for tracking my (personal, subjective) top 10-15 songs from every k-pop group i can think of because why not. well i've been doing this for years but i've suddenly been gripped with a desire to do so properly... lowk feel like this is an exercise for NOTION. anyway some random gg lists so far... can't wait to revisit my progress in [insert number of months] [probably like 6]. oh i should mark down release years when i actually do this e__e
wjsn
red velvet
twice [much shuffling & revisiting required...]
oh my girl
hmm... much 2 think of !!!
i feel like there was more i meant to cover in this post but now i don't know... Life Is Life ! tired & in pain all the time but starting to think this might just be the baseline for the rest of my life
wheel/puck
β we live in a lando onewins society... so many thots on this race that do not need to be rehashed extensively (and yet i will inevitably do something close enough to that) but also as an oscarybro my 55 agenda grows by the day it's so bad π 2c*r is krilling my crops because i cannot ship 81 with guys he doesn't rate (2) and/or guys who don't have even the slightest baseline of mutual respect/reciprocal sentiment with him (55)... like the Hateurism angle isn't even compelling 2 me because in the end it's just coughing baby vs hydrogen bomb / one guy biting his tongue and downplaying it to the point of not even calling it a racing incident vs. the other guy frothing at the mouth whinging about this man's terrorism supposedly being on par with KMAG ON HAMILTON ?!? can you Pleaseeeeee. like king i respect your fuckit attitude whilst facing 7wdc-induced unemployment and contractual 4d chess that may or may not come back 2 haunt u eoy but can you like get a job maybe. also have to laugh at oscar pitting > uselessly taking fl point from lando > carlos getting the pen in the end and losing 2 points > lando getting upgraded to wdc p4 off p2 tiebreaker from his china podium. everything in equilibrium π
but fr all there's left in this world is to be a little bit romantic about sports... it's funny because. i don't even know. i'd been feeling very like... normal ? not stressed ? about this entire weekend, partially because I don't really put that much stock in a post-upgrade sprint weekend and preemptively allowed a lot of room for error but also because i've been soooo much more stressed out about the st*rs and because the general sentiment around the upgrades has been so positive even with the sq setbacks / track surfacing & unpredictable conditions concealing true pace gains that i wasn't ever that worried about our long runs and race trim. v happy 2 be proven right even if i never in a million years could have predicted both the race start + sc reversal... tho also skill issue re: extending stint + if both cars had cashed in on the sc we would have sat through nightmare discourse on lando inevitably overtaking oscar and their pace deficit saurr maybe it's for the better. also hard to tell what "50%" of upgrades tangibly translates to wrt performance but meh. imola... crasy 2 think oscar has never raced there but at least he's done testing so it's not too unfamiliar of a track. i just worry about fer upgrades but in general i hope some fortune returns in europe because brother... π ALSO WHY IS DORY WASHED. we need to get Ha out of miami
honestly being an op81 fan is so easy because there's just this enduring sense of like / it's almost an insult really to fixate too meticulously on his poor luck when he himself is not relying on any excuses so when he's already moved on and is looking forward why wouldn't you ? he genuinely got agitated over the sc and this was easily one of if not the most frustrating race of his career so far wrt potential of lost result but it's such a little inconsequential thing in the grand scheme of things that it's easy to reset and be like ju................ i fell asleep writing this. idk what i was going to say but anyway we move on
cursed race/paddock/discourse in many ways but meh....... also i went back in my messages and perhaps i lied about not caring about miami results but i mean once fp1 happened i was fairly optimistic about the upgrades because lando's attitude toward a package is easy enough to read. finally me saying "aero efficiency gains in miami queen ? π" @ andrea every day for a month has paid off
from 04/23...also. andrea stella u are everythingggg 2 me 𧑠croed @ gentle op knee pat during post-race msgs TT___TT at the end of the day i love One (1) eternally pragmatic italian tp
also why is oscar going to the club for lando lowk peak romanze 2 me. there is no one i could ever love enough in the entire world to go to a nightclub for. hell environment...... that being said i also have considerably more health issues than the man but the principle of shut-in non-drinker introversion remains
β stars........... tfw the love continues 2 be there. (she dies) this stupid ass family-narrative team why are they all obsessed with each other why do they live and die by there is no fear in love / a little less for a lot more / their unerring devotion to TeamTM ?!?!? i kept saying i was terrified of a vgk 1st round exit and spent so long emotionally preparing myself and yet when we went down 2 i still started genuinely experiencing hot flashes omg like it was so bad my doomerism has never been worse. wyatt johnston you rock my world.....
if i think about it too much i'll actually cry π but seriously. pavs was neutralized so much this series and i keep having to take deep breaths like... and Yet the 20 year old kid he houses is the one suddenly leading the offensive surge on this team, 25 y/o otter is out here calling delly his SON and has him living with him and his fiancΓ©e, harls is literally a wedge adoptee, our "star" player is a facking unasumming nerd who is at the center of so many random flop loser triangulations........ π Basically it's like this:
not everything has 2 be broced redux 𧑠let us expand our horizons 𧑠and also stop doomposting in the primary tags π§‘
but anyway. i'm not delusional enough to think that the avs will in any way be an easy matchup and maybe we're destined for unceremonious 2nd round exit but it feels like. so good to finally "avenge" last year in a way and i GUESS do so on home ice even if this was the most stressful way the series could have played out. like why are we allergic to 2+ goal leads you are all so deeply unserious. shoutout rf12 g7 gwg fr though
music
β mtg is insane..... not like us is less insane objectively but still insane given timing and release strategy. goes without saying that it's reductive to only make it about the ~hateurisms~ when properly contextualized but also like... he is a professional hateur fr. also revisited hiss a few times and <3 i love u meg
β been listening to way too much lc! lately it's like a disease. my fav track used to be a heat rash in the shape of the show me state but i was suddenly feeling nostalgic about their discog and went back to revisit so many tracks and now we are beautiful we are doomed / the sea is a good place double feature has a chokehold on me. faaaackk... and ofc my mountain goats moment which is similarly awful. life has been uniquely difficult as of late that my playlist of emotional support depression songs has nearly doubled π
u have to laugh. nwjns they could never make me hate u and so on
also been enjoying swedish alt rock legends KENT recently π
i need to do my 2024 k-pop catchup but i haven't had the energy... hopefully soon
(this thing hurts like hell / but what did you expect? πππ)
etc.
β i'm so freaking bad at watching things lately but emily inspired me to finally sit my ass down and get to problemista and π SOO charming oh julio torres how i adore u. also idr if i already talked about this but i watched soulmate (2023) (kr) with risa a while ago and like omg girl what da hell. NO ONE IN THIS WORLD EVER LOVED YOU EXCEPT ME?!?!?!?!?
tv-wise i finished baby reindeer which whew. ep6 monologue far too trenchant... i keep meaning to watch other stuff but i'm like eughhghhh. still haven't finished yr s3 and it's been out for an eternity by now. in fact i'm barely through s3e2... also note 2 self 2 check out jellyfish can't swim !!__!! honestly i don't even know what the last anime i properly watched was. why is banfish the only one coming to mind rn??? π
+++ have to watch challengers. why am i the only person on planet earth to not have seen it yet
β i want to make a bunch of knit/crochet stuff and therefore keep trying to pick them (back in the case of knitting) up but i am SOOOO BADDDD at crocheting i think i need to accept that it is not for me. i don't understand... i never know what loop i'm supposed to be using.......... and i wanted to knit a little sweater for a plushie but the moment extra needle lines (?) are introduced i get so facking confused π my brain is so small. i should try again at some point though... aghhh. so inspired by oomf creations lately tho πππ one day!
β i feel weird/bad/stupid about art and Making things all the time because it's just like well it's bad... but it's fine that it's bad!!! so why do i care. but also it's just sooo bad. i don't know... c__c i feel silly that all i do is draw little cheebs and have 0 Technical Ability but like ??___?? i am old and tired and am doing my best. save me rookie (2017) ojp variant π
β also been workshopping a living document that's just for tracking my (personal, subjective) top 10-15 songs from every k-pop group i can think of because why not. well i've been doing this for years but i've suddenly been gripped with a desire to do so properly... lowk feel like this is an exercise for NOTION. anyway some random gg lists so far... can't wait to revisit my progress in [insert number of months] [probably like 6]. oh i should mark down release years when i actually do this e__e
wjsn
- babyface
- pantomime
- secret
- done
- perfect!
- full moon
- i-yah
- dreams come true
- save me save you
- you got
- unnatural
- let's dance
- la la love
- starry moment
- boogie up
red velvet
- body talk
- kingdom come
- russian roulette
- peek-a-boo
- butterflies
- #cookie jar
- red flavor
- will i ever see you again
- lp
- bad boy
- underwater [2 sort ???]
- blue lemonade
- psycho
- sappy
- ice cream cake
- with you
- so good
twice [much shuffling & revisiting required...]
- likey
- λ λ°λΌλ°λΌλ΄
- wallflower
- basics
- tt
- feel special
- up no more
- bloom
- rush
- what is love?
- better
- cry for me
- baby blue love
- four-leaf clover
- fancy
- moonlight sunrise
- talk that talk
oh my girl
- (destiny (lvlz cover))
- closer
- tropical love
- step by step
- my doll
- vogue
- ssfwl
- windy day
- secret garden
- replay
- agit
- bungee
- nonstop
- who comes who knows
- eden
hmm... much 2 think of !!!
i feel like there was more i meant to cover in this post but now i don't know... Life Is Life ! tired & in pain all the time but starting to think this might just be the baseline for the rest of my life
