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i need to write a mini media wrap-up or music post later but i'm pretty behind on listening for the year so i'll get to those eventually :') lol but i did want to make a mini yearly retrospective just for the fun of it first! alas i am not getting any younger x__x

this is going to be rambly and personal and pretty stupid. and image heavy (apologies)

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- turned Old in september and spent some time visiting risa which was loads of fun :') got a few gifts and also bought myself a thing or two /)__(\... personal favs include moomin hat because i really needed a new hat and i love anything moomin ! + custom jellycat rubik's cube plushie oomf crocheted for me i honestly cried T__T + robo jersey courtesy of me directly linking it to my father so he knew what to get LOL. also accidentally swapped oscar pcs with risa when we were at a cafe but thankfully i'm seeing her again soon for svt so we will be reunited briefly <3 also i'll have you know that she took me to dave & busters for the first time and i set like all the daily high scores on the piano keys board!!! now convinced i could take oscar piastri down in a reflex game

- risa also made me download pikmin bloom which i am now obsessed with... everyone add me pleaseeeee. we've successfully converted arlene and frog and some others but it's never enough

- haven't really been watching movies properly lately ): but i eagerly watched the wild robot in theaters earlier and loved it so much... i love animation and i love found family narratives so you know i had no choice but to be obsessed

- life's been kind of rough in a weird limbo kind of way... constantly in the dark concerning my health and just frustrated about the whole thing but trying to not be too waylaid by it. i think i've been quite "burnt out" creatively in that everything i draw is just bad and i really want to work on things but i can never quite find the energy to do so... i have a few old doodles i want to finish + i want to make this interactive thing that requires art but it's all a little too much work for me atm. i need to get it together !

- but while i've been in fandom-burnout mode i have been playing a lot of Cozy Indie Games on steam which have been fun :') thinking about making a post later with in-depth reviews but we'll see... basically there's an asmrtist i'm subscribed to (jubileewhispers) who does a lot of asmr let's plays and she really likes this genre as well so through her i discovered a few games and i kind of just accidentally got sucked into playing them... also because oomf gave me some recs and i ended up trying some stuff that was really cheap/on sale. anyway the asmrtist i like has played a lot of a little to the left and i've kind of become obsessed with it !!! although i finished the main game and the cupboards dlc... also played minami lane, sticky business which i highly rec although i kind of stopped playing it after 13 hours... maybe i'll get back to it, carto which i'm not done with, garden galaxy, unpacking which i've been meaning to play for sooo long and really loved, and of course FIELDS OF MISTRIA!!! i've only played 11 hours but i really love it... stardew valley is already a really easy and "friendly" game so it sounds kind of dumb to call fields of mistria a friendlier stardew but it's kind of true... still haven't decided which bachelorette i want to marry though T__T

- shockingly after 9 million words i think i might be starting to hit the bottom of the barrel of available tw fic... what fandom should i terrorize next. actually speaking of fic i am determined to finish writing at least One (1) 814 fic before the year ends ;;___;; i'm just a flop these days

- been really enjoying my little nytimes games again (sans subscription), i'm not as obsessed with connections as i was during that crasy phase but i'm really enjoying strands these days so i play them all together !

- not sure how many stars games i'll be able to go to this season and a part of me really wants to travel to dallas again esp so i can see a mavs game as well t____t and it would be so fun to go to both with oomf... but traveling is kind of a big question mark right now especially if we manage to get ausgp tickets (crossing fingers) because that basically puts me out all of march. reallyreally hoping melb works out though! i don't want to get ahead of myself but i also want to start prepping a bakery list... it's serious.

TT___TT that's all for this meaningless update post... i am very sleepy and tired all the time!!! currently listening to new doechii album and it's pretty good. my top 5 (eta: sorry this is 6-7) for 2024 atm is probably imaginal disk/sky hundred + lives outgrown + wall of eyes + my light my destroyer + bright future + dark times but there's still much time to discover... also haven't rated my method actor yet!!! i don't think this year has been that amazing for music for me but still a lot i like.............. oh also need to make a stats post about k-pop later reminder2self

bros i gotta be so real with you i have never been more exhausted in my entire life. in uplifting insomnia news though i literally passed out for 16 hours straight on sunday and like i absolutely did not experience any rem sleep whatsoever and woke up feeling abjectly terrible but on principle it was probably a good thing (?).........

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recently posted some crafts stuff i've done over the past few days/weeks/months and i wanted to delve more into my processes on dreamwidth to look back on later as i continue refining my methodology / hopefully try new things t__t

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c__c so tired & nauseated all the time but instead of making another self-indulgent gifset i'm going to finally finish writing this post... where 2 begin!

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( a mixed bag of things... sorry preemptively for sportsblogging )

truly a month of agonies

( going nowhere until it bleeds )

yes i know no one cares about this man but clearly i'll write whatever i want

intro

parannoul is an anonymous shoegaze artist based in seoul, vaguely college-aged, who accrued mild internet recognition when his self-released album blew up across various music microcommunities in 2021. he has a large catalog of post-rock songs that used to exist on soundcloud under the moniker laststar (끝이별), now principally goes by parannoul (파란노을), and also makes some ambient side project stuff under mydreamfever. most of his popularity comes from an international audience—he is largely hated by the dc post-rock gall, his music is often viewed as noisy trash by domestic cynics, he will never be nominated or recognized by kma, etc. etc. but he is distributed by poclanos in korea so there's that. tstnpotd vinyl coming out soon!

you can learn more about him in this sonemic interview, this woove interview, this blank slate elyria interview, this sleep like a pillow interview, or this pitchfork review.

[Interviewer]: How would you describe your music to someone who hasn’t heard your music before?
파란노을: trash disguised as amateurism

Eventually, when I became an adult, there was no one around me. I didn’t even achieve anything musically for 3 years in high school, nobody listened to my music while I was making about literally 130 songs. If I had been bullied, I could have blamed others. But I knew it was purely all my fault, so it was even more painful.

Well, sadness is relative. It seemed very big to me. To bear that situation, I focused on making the album. It was like running away from something. [...] I don’t feel bad about being a loser, jobless, hikikomori, and loner who makes songs alone in my room. Actually, I feel proud about that sometimes.

the reason i wanted to make this post is that it was the one-year anniversary of To See the Next Part of the Dream (2021 AOTY) (to some) (to me) a few days ago, and to commemorate this occasion parannoul released a b-side ep with a few demos and songs that didn't make the album's final cut. and of course after digesting it i was like oh wow... this guy actually has enough tracks under his belt for me to start discerning things......

so that's what this post is.

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